The Romanov Diaries (Letters): Tsaritsa Alexandra

As we know the bond between Nicholas II and his wife Alexandra was extremely strong. However with the outbreak of World War I they were separated for extended periods. Here we have some correspondence from The Tsaritsa to The Tsar.

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Livadia, April 27-th, 1914

My sweetest treasure, my very Own one,

you will read these lines when you get into your bed in a strange place & unknown house. God grant that the journey may be a pleasant & interesting one, & not too tiring nor too dusty. I am so glad to have the map, as then can follow you hourly. I shall miss you h o r r i b I y , but I am glad for you that you will be away for 2 days & get new impressions & hear nothing of Anias stories. My heart is heavy & sore – must one’s kindness & love always be repayed thus? The black family & now she? One is always told one can never love enough – here we gave our hearts our home to her, our private life even – & this is what we have gained! It is difficult not to become bitter – it seems so cruelly unjust. –

May God have mercy & help us, the heart is so heavy! I am in despair that she gives you worries & disagreeable conversations, no rest for you either. Well try & forget all these two days. I bless you & cross you & hold you tightly in my arms – kiss you all over with boundless love & devotion. I shall be in Church to-morrow morning at 9 & try to go again on Thursday – it does me good to pray for you when we are separated cannot get accustomed, for ever so short, not to have you in the house, tho’ I have our 5 treasures. –

Sleep well my Sunshine, my own precious one & thousand tender kisses fr. yr. own old

Wify.

God bless & keep you.

Petergof, June 29-th 1914

My beloved One,

It is very sad not to accompany you – but I thought I would better remain with the little Ones quietly here. Heart & soul are ever near you with tenderest love & passion, all my prayers suround you – I am therefore glad to go at once to evening service when you leave & to-morrow morning at 9 to mass. I shall dine with Anna, Marie & Anastasia & go early to bed. Marie Bariatinsky will lunch with us & spend her last afternoon with me. –

I do hope you will have a calm sea & enjoy yr. trip wh. will be a rest for you – you need it, as were looking pale to-day.

Shall miss you sorely, my very Own precious One. – Sleep well my treasure, – my bed will be, oh, so empty.

God bless & kiss you. Very tenderest kisses fr. yr. own old

Wify.

Tsarskoe Selo, Nov. 18-th 1914

My own beloved One, as a Feldjeger leaves this evening, I profit to write & tell you how we spent the morning. Such pain fills the heart without my Sweetheart being here – so hard to see you having all alone. – We went straight to the hospital after Fredericks had given me a paper to sign at the station. We had a good deal to do, but I sat long whilst the children worked. A. was in a stupid, unamiable mood. She went off earlier, to see Alia who arrives, & will only come back at 9 & not to our lecture. She never asked what I would do – once you are not there, she is glad to get out of the house. Its no good running away from ones sorrow. But I am glad to see less of her when she is unamiable.

What dirty weather! I am going to the Childrens’ hospital & then to the big palace.

Marie & Olga go rushing about the room, Tatiana has a lesson, Anastasia sits with her – Baby is going out after resting. The Governor calls me quickly. – I just received Mme Muftizade & then the business manager of my Tsarskoe Selo red cross of Suvalki. He has come to fetch things & ask for 2 motors. –

Beloved One, my very own Huzy dear – me wants kiss you, to cudle close & feel comfy. Now the children call me to the hospital, so I must be off. The man goes at 5. Goodbye lovy mine, God bless & keep you now & evermore.

All the children kiss you tenderly

Ever your very own

Wify.

 

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